my boyfriend (soulmate, best guy i ever met, the only guy i've ever truly loved) just broke up with me a few days ago. normally, i bounce back super quickly. this 'depression' is a whole new territory with me. because he claims he's still in love with me, but he just 'needs to get his life together' before we can be "us" again. so i guess we're on a break? i don't know. all i know is that he seems to be fine every time i talk to him, whereas i can't stop crying and i can't eat (well that's a plus).
what to do, betches? do i wait for him, be his 'friend' while he does whatever he needs to do (meaning get a new job, finish up his master program, find a new apartment... NOT doing other girls), orrrr do i cut him loose, find someone who is available to love me now?? it's just like, i've never been in love before. i know it's lame, but i feel like i lost a big part of myself. but what if my boy never comes back to me? what if he 'fixes his life', and then decides we've grown apart in the months we weren't together, and go gets another girl? and then i'm left having wasted x amount of months waiting for some guy who doesn't even pick me in the end.
this whole thing is just ridiculous. sorry for the long explanation. also, sorry for not being at the top of my betch game.